One Big Cliche

Hey Beauties,
                   So I literally just walked through the front door of my apartment and the one place I just had to come was here.  I have been writing a lot about relationships lately and I think most of it has to do with the growth I've made within myself due to some new experiences. To say that life for me is different sounds like One Big Cliche but it completely sum's up everything that has been going on. I have admitted to looking at life through foggy glasses once before but with this new found peace of mind that is no longer the case. Life will give you just what you need when you least expect it and all your suppose to do its just absorb it without asking any questions. Its like, excepting that nothing in life is guaranteed but still being willing to ride out all the waves until you get to shore. I no longer want to assume that the worst is right around the corner. But instead I want to be that girl, that woman who allows life to happen naturally. Ready Set Go...

P.s just because I always look out for you beauties I'm going to bless you all with a few photos from my birthday featuring D.

When it feels right go for it. -Brittanyalissa

XOXO BrittanyAlissa

TO RUN OR NOT TO RUN

Hey Beauties,
                   So this blog is really turning out to be mainly about relationships and I don't truly know how I feel about it. Although I love relationships, and being able to give my input on them I am not an expert and my opinions are just that (OPINIONS) so please don't take my words as LAW....
Now without further ado this post is about "Running away from relationships" and why people do it.
  I have been known for running from situations that have gotten to serious. I've ran from fear of getting hurt, fear of things turning right, and overall fear of myself. Wearing your heart on your sleeve isn't always the most settling feeling. Its actually quite frightening. But the funniest thing about any of this is that I run in the most backwards situations ever. For instance,
If things are not so good I stay, and when things are amazing I run. 0_o
Like WTH.
So for the past year I just decided to quit running altogether. And lets just say that although a little optimism goes a long way,,,,,,,,, allowing yourself to be vulnerable sucks donkey nuts. (BLAH,BLAH, BLAH BLAH,BLAH)
So what does any of this mean?
Can it be fixed?
Will I ever find love?
Does love exist?
So let me say this, I DON'T HAVE THE ANSWERS TO ANY OF THOSE QUESTIONS.
But I do know that when you love someone and I mean butterflies, sleepless nights, whole day thrown off type of love, then maybe its OK to ride out the waves and see where that love will take you. Your heart feels what it feels and wants what it wants even when your mind is not in agreeance.
I have learned that people tend to sabotage things and situations out of fear. And sabotage is the same thing as running altogether.
Just because "You" aren't technically putting feet to pavement doesn't eliminate the fact that you are forcing the other person to find reasons to pick apart the relationship, therefore resulting in "running".
What happened to the days when people weren't afraid of love and excepted it in its entirety?
I'll tell you what I think happened. I think that over the course of your life's existence you find that one person who changes your life and allows you to "love" and when things go wrong within that particular relationship the hurt that remains is also accompanied by this "void'. And out of fear of ever feeling that hurt again you tend to build this invisible wall that protects your heart. Now from experience I can admit to knowing this to be a fact, but hurting someone else (Unintentionally) doesn't make it right. I can't say whether having a road block up is the best medicine because again I have been known to do it, but I will say this
I will rather spend my days hurting over what I know; than my nights pondering about what I don't.
what I mean by that is this, I would much rather iron out the problems that come with a relationship, than to run away and never know if that person and myself were ever going to work out despite all of the effort.
In closing I will say that admitting to love may be the hardest thing ever to some people. And its totally OK.. But hurting that person out of fear of getting hurt yourself (is not).
You have to understand that not everyone is going to "get it" so you risk losing something that can either be the greatest thing or the worst situation ever all because of fear. NOT KNOWING IS SCARY, BUT WE WAKE UP EVERY MORNING NOT KNOWING SO WHY do we think there should be a difference when it comes to love? Feeling LOVE within your heart and walking away from it is pretty silly! The whole point of running is to avoid getting hurt isn't it? But wouldn't you still feel hurt from loving someone and either pushing or allowing them to walk out of your life? Is that not a bit cliche? Or is RUNNING much easier than actually staying and not knowing?
                                                            My THOUGHTS
I would much rather LOVE and feel, than to not. I have done my share of regretting. And walking away from someone who has my heart would leave nothing but regret.
My heart will mend if it gets broken, but I refuse to break my own heart out of fear of having anyone else break it.
So the QUESTION IS
To Run or Not to Run? I'm interested in hearing your fed back. :-)

XOXO BrittanyAlissa